Christmas fun

Christmas Day - wow - early morning but lots of excitement.
Leg is absolutely good today - no pain, and didn't give brufen

Everyone over at breakfast to open presents and usual waffle and strawberries.
Miss anorexia wouldn't come.
She just wasn't ready. Had to finish her own breakfast - in room - doing puzzles.
Eldest had to get to work, so in end we just started without her.

Is this an anorexia way?

Boys and I went to church at 10am, and came back to find Miss Anorexia gone -
no note or text.

Slept the day. Boys played with toys. Miss Ani returned, and then went for a walk
with her older sister. It was raining so older sis returned, but Miss Ani didn't.

Dinner was at 5pm at restaurant, but at 6pm Miss Ani was still absent. Didn't reply to text,
and wouldn't answer her phone. We were late. Miss Ani returned at 6.20, and we had
to have a raised voice session and lots of tension.

On way home after dinner Miss Ani was fine, but we found she had dvds to return in her room,
and they were overdue, but she didn't want me to know she had them. More tension.
More raised voice sessions.

She is upset. She gave me a Christmas List. I bought 2 things off it for her. But she needs to
purchase all on it... "I could have bought other stuff with my Christmas money, but now I have to spend it on my list".

But why do I feel so guilty? I so have to avoid the raised voice sessions, and tension, but
it is so irritating, so frustrating.

Is it just a typical 15yr old teenager, or is it different because of the anorexia.
I have 2 older teenagers. We have had tension, but not like this.
She is eating fine. Am suring her weight will be better. But she has changed.
Its like she lives inside a world that no one else belongs to. But lots she will leave
this world and be with us, but mostly not.

On Sunday she said she was going to a party with her friends. She asked me to
drop her at Sylvia Park at 5pm. Fun as I had to be at Metz at 5pm to work.
Of course she wasn't ready to go at 4.45pm because she didn't want to be early....
An hour later she txt wanting me to pick her up...she had had enough and wanted to be home.
Luckily ,A' came and covered for me at work. After we went to dinner and
for walk to Mission Bay after.

She needs to be in comfort areas.
She needs to be happy
but to do all this is to have her as total focus and in a way to spoil.

I want a rest
Is the other children too
Why is it so hard?